i’m feeling raw and sad today. i want to text matt and ask him if we can hang out when he gets back from chicago today but i know that he won’t want to. not sure if it’s better to imagine the rejection or to subject myself to it to get it over with.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me today. i am on the verge of tears, my stomach feels like it’s a huge knot, i feel really lost. aimless. stuck. i’m aware of the contradiction.
i hope it passes.