i don’t know how or when or why it happened, but in this whole mess of a situation, i’ve realized that there’s something about me that makes me feel like i’m an imposition on people. i find myself frequently apologizing for existing, being overly cautious about imposing on people’s time, even asking if it’s okay if i interrupt someone with whom i’m hanging out in order to go to the bathroom. wtf.
also, teacher friend called me last night to assure me that he made it home safely and i asserted that he should not forget to eat dinner. he said, “thanks, mom.” and i said, “please don’t be another person to call me that.” and he said, “you get that a lot, huh?”
yep. yep, i do.