yesterday was pretty bad. i couldn’t concentrate and cried a lot at work. and at home. and when i called my friend joe in california. and when matt got home from work.
he tells me, “we’re not right for each other.” what i hear is, “you’re not right for me.” and then i think of all the things i hate about myself and can’t get out of that hole. and then i start to cry again.
i’m working from home today because i don’t have the energy to deal. i really want to just go back to bed but i feel like i’ve been slacking at work and there is stuff that needs to get done.