i feel like i misspoke yesterday when i said that i’d been through things 100x worse. i don’t think i have, really. this is pretty awful. and even if i could compare this to any other breakup, it isn’t the same. it’s not like the relationship deteriorated into hatred or one of us did something specifically unforgivable.
i can only describe the feeling as having the rug pulled out from under me and free-falling. that’s how i’ve felt for over two weeks now. it’s starting to become maddening.