people are funny animals

this could be kind of rambly, so i aplologize in advance. if you’re lucky, i’ll edit it down before i publish the entry.
so, the most recent incarnation of my job has only taken hold completely since near the end of last year. it’s hard to describe to people… i usually tell them that it’s like “making sure a cell phone or car interface makes sense to use.” the blinker wand belongs to the left of the steering wheel, the ‘begin call’ button should be green, not red… mostly, it’s observing people’s “way”, and making sure the design is such that doesn’t interfere with the task at hand. it sounds simple, doesn’t it?
well, consider how different you and your partner’s opinions are about grocery shopping, wine, which route to take somewhere… i have to figure out how to make sure that both you and your partner find what you’re looking for, using all the clues and facts that you expect in any path to completion. i’ve often said that my job is done when no one says anything, because that means everything worked as expected.
i recently realized that i thank my mom so much for, what i consider, my innate ability to surmise what someone wants and articulate the means before the person can even do it. i used to wonder why she enjoyed sitting on state street or in the food court “people-watching”. now i understand. so, thanks mom. :)
this also feeds my ability to listen and provide feedback to individuals, trying to help them find a means to their end. the reason i started this entry is because someone i know attempted suicide two days ago (she’s alive and in the hospital). i can’t really say more about who it is, because that’s the extent to what i’ve been entrusted; but this situation is the single one in which i have no idea how to deal; and i wish i knew…
we all feel helpless in our lives at some point; i’m just unfamiliar with the kind that lasts so long or hurts so deep that it creates the desire to just stop. so, this is one place where i don’t feel like i know everything; i can’t help her find a means to her end because it’s not supposed to be that way.
i’m not sure why i wanted to tell you this. it’s just been on my brain since yesterday…

throbby

so, after having missed the crack doctor on monday (he had kidney stones, i had a headache… guess who feels silly now?) and finally getting in yesterday afternoon, i feel a lot better.
the skeptic in me wonders if i would have even had any headaches had i not been dependent on adjustments over the last month?
thankfully, today it’s gone.

hmm

i stayed home yesterday. i was feeling a little off since sunday morning, and woke up with a headache behind both eyes. i very rarely get headaches, so when i do, i’m not fun to be around.
also, we really need to get that water softener. my scalp is hating the hard water.

amazing

i’ve successfully upgraded MT… it was probably the easiest upgrade ever.
now, i’m off to check on a friend’s kitty.

ahhh

i just paid off my credit card. according to my calculations, and my previous payment history, i just saved enough in finance charges to almost cover the iphone purchase. :)
also, we had the contractor over yesterday to get final measurements and now have to find the right tiles. the restore had some nice tiles, but not nearly enough to cover three walls… and menards’ selection sucked.
now to check online…

well

the only good thing about this awful weather is that I can use the iPhone while driving. i know… naughty. but driving at 5mph, there is little that can go wrong.
anyhoo, hope you voted tonight. it may seem unimportant, but it’s one of the few civil liberties we’re free to exercise at such a meaningful time.
i chose obama.

ugh

it took me 50 minutes to get to work. i almost turned around when a truck with a horse trailer couldn’t quite make it up the first hill on hwy m after the curve… but i couldn’t find a good place to do it, and this a-hole was riding my ass so i couldn’t make a quick pull-over.
it’s very quiet at work… i think lots of people opted to stay home. or come in late.

holy crap

it’s terrible out!! we went to the square for breakfast and it was okay, but east wash is flooded every single block. there are a couple city guys out trying to clear the storm drains but it’s probably not happening quicker than the precipitation.
the upside: woodman’s was dead. i was in and out in less than 20 minutes.
kurt put in the day after tomorrow to celebrate our weather phenomenon.